So El Guapo obtained known as away for work for the 12 months. He can be again 1x per thirty days or I’ll fly to see him 1x per thirty days. This occurred final 12 months additionally and we made it by by seeing one another 2x a month. The brand new plan to see one another solely 1x per thirty days makes me really feel like my organs are going to fall out of my physique. He has been gone 3 weeks and it appears like I’ve a raging fireplace in my coronary heart. Sorry for the dramatic description of my emotions.

Abandonment is my set off so you may solely think about the place my loopy ego thoughts needs to take me with this expertise. I do know he’s gone working to be my hero and supplier, however triggers may be loopy. When triggered a girl’s thoughts can take a superbly regular scenario and chop it up, twist it round and create chaos in a scenario the place none must be. For instance, final 12 months whereas he was away I truly had the thought that possibly he was planning to by no means come dwelling and he loved residing together with his male work mates extra. WTF? lol!

We’ve got such a good looking, stable, loving and thrilling relationship so I’ve to snigger at the place my thoughts can take me. So throughout these final 3 weeks I’ve truly been dealing very effectively. I used to be actually unhappy final week and when he requested me what was flawed I started to softly cry and inform him it was exhausting to be aside, however I appreciated his exhausting work. He welcomed the vulnerability and listened and comforted me with candy phrases. I made positive to not make him flawed or unhealthy. I additionally made positive to not count on him to repair it. In these moments once I really feel my thoughts wandering to tales that don’t really feel good I gently cease the eye flowing to these ideas and information my thoughts again to the second. Within the second I breathe and let go of any story that triggers me.

I made positive to not make him flawed or unhealthy

I additionally made positive to not count on him to repair it

My foremost work is my power work – I really feel the sensations in my physique that really feel painful. I really feel the tightening in my chest and abdomen once I really feel loss and I really feel the burning sensation in my coronary heart once I really feel longing. I put consideration into my physique so my thoughts loses the power to create extra scary tales. This is how I management my feelings, work by my triggers and keep in my Goddess power. After I do that I’m low drama, susceptible and capable of specific myself in a method the place El Guapo doesn’t really feel threatened. By doing issues this manner life, love and/or El Guapo at all times reward me someway. After I opened my entrance door this morning I used to be greeted with a good looking bouquet of roses combined with my favourite flower, peonies. There was a love notice from El Guapo for Mom’s Day. It was such a romantic and candy gesture. I felt cherished and liked and grateful for my Goddess work!

A lot Love,

Malena