Some time in the past I believed I simply wanted the precise man to like me in simply the precise manner earlier than I lastly felt that deep sense of achievement that we girls so desperately search in relationship with males. I believed if I might solely discover a man that was affectionate, romantic and masculine then I might lastly really feel beloved. Then enters El Guapo, barging into my life like a knight in shining armor. He went from a boy to a person, saying and doing all the precise issues and difficult me to develop and love in methods I by no means knew I might. He started to make all my wildest desires come true as he beloved me and confirmed up within the relationship precisely the best way I wanted him to. But, as a substitute of feeling fulfilled I felt numb. I couldn’t imagine it. Why numb? All the pieces I’ve ever needed was in entrance of me and I used to be frozen in worry. This has been a tremendous lesson for me and I believe different lady have gone via this additionally. I can solely surmise that the explanation I used to be worry stricken was as a result of there was nobody responsible and nothing to struggle towards. There was simply pure unconditional, great love pouring in from a tremendous man. This meant I needed to be actual, weak and have an open coronary heart in love. This is the reason I froze. Over the previous couple of years, I’ve realized that it isn’t that love doesn’t present up for us, it’s that we don’t know what to do when it does present up. With no defenses or no self-sabotaging behaviors I’m compelled to let love in. It’s a gradual and painful course of, however I do know it’s the subsequent stage of progress. This stage is about permitting love in. I’ll name it the “Artwork of Permitting Love In.” For many of this 12 months I’ve felt like I’m stepping off a cliff into the abyss. I might by no means have guessed this was the following stage in love. I believed the precise man and the precise relationship was the tip of the highway. Little did I do know that when these issues present up you should drop your obstacles to like  if you wish to transcend and see what lies on the opposite aspect. A Goddess is courageous sufficient to take this step and clever sufficient to know it’s her personal obstacles to like that  stand in her manner.

A lot Love,

Malena