See below things I say to my husband in a typical week that honors his masculinity and inspires him to cherish me. This is the natural feminine and masculine energy exchange that was meant to take place between men and women. This is not a game or manipulation. It is honest respect for the masculine. As relationship coach, Pat Allen, says “a man’s deepest unconscious desire is for his thoughts to be respected.” Moreover a man falls in love with how you make him feel. In my relationship, no matter how often the world makes my man feel like a failure he can always count on me to make him feel like a hero. I am his safe, sweet space. In turn, he lives to protect, cherish and make me happy. Please remember this dynamic exists between us after many years of working on our issues. I have been through the dark night of the soul and experienced immense pain trying to figure out how to push through my negative thoughts patterns and release the stored pain inside my heart. It has not been easy and it is still work that must be practiced daily.

I feel inspired today to share Eckhart Tolle’s work. In his book “A New Earth” there is a chapter entitled “Breaking Free.” It is referring to your ego and it’s negative emotions. Eckhart refers to your negative emotional triggers (aka the fearful thoughts in your mind) as the pain body. The reason this is important to understand is because when the “pain -body” is activated it makes you behave in a way that scares a man on a deep level. The “pain-body’ is your biggest enemy to building a loving relationship with a man. See excerpt below.

A few days ago, I received an email from Katarina Phang. The title was – “You Gotta Let Him Fall In Love First Before He Can Put Up With Your Emotional Diarrhea” It was brilliant and said so much in so few words. I think this is the essence of why so many men withdraw and pull away in the beginning of a relationship or when dating. If a man has not had time to develop an emotional connection with you then your emotional outbursts and drama seems ridiculous to him. He is not invested emotionally in you and sees your inability to manage your emotions as a liability and a major future problem . So it is your duty as a Goddess to get your emotions, triggers and reckless thought patterns under control before you start to catch feelings for a man. This way you can show him that you are one of the few women that are centered, emotionally in touch/in control and therefore fun and easy to be with. This is the woman a man will chase and pursue. Men are sensitive creatures inside and they have strong intuition. They know how difficult a woman will be within a few months of dating her. In a nutshell men become emotionally unavailable when they sense you will be to difficult to be in a relationship with. That is why you hear stories about a man who has been afraid to commit suddenly marry a particular woman. She triggered his commitment button because he feel safe and good in her presence and knew she would not be difficult to be with. This is hard to hear, but long ago someone said it to me and I woke up and changed. Now things are very different in my life. See a little snippet from Katarina’s email below.

Therapists and relationship coaches are always telling you to heal the broken parts of yourself in order to attract a healthy and loving relationship. While this is true, many do not tell you how to exactly do this. The popular belief is that healing is done by talking about your issues and or understanding your childhood traumas etc. Well for many years I talked and analyzed myself to death and it never resulted in a more functionally healthy relationship with a man. It was not until I searched for a spiritual solution that the real changes came. In my search for a spiritual solution to my worldly problems I learned about the nature of the ego (aka lower mind). I first learned about this from authors Eckhart Tolle and Marianne Williamson. Then I came across it again while reading the book “The Untethered Soul” by Michael Singer. Michael Singer really taught me about the nature of the mind and how to become a witness to it’s drama. When I developed this awareness I was finally able to calm down and become less emotionally destructive and reactive with the man in my life. Developing the higher mind that can bear witness to the restless and problematic mind is what heals you. You become detached from the crazy story that triggers you in relationships. Most importantly you are able to handle uncomfortable feelings and manage your emotions which brings safety to your man. Now that I am married this awareness still proves to be the key. It not only helps me in my loving relationship with my husband, but also my children and work. See excerpt below.

Hello Ladies!If I had to pick one concept for all women to understand that would help them turn their relationship around it would be the concept of “Emotional Safety” for a man. Creating emotional safety for your man means understanding your triggers and knowing how to manage your emotions without dumping on your man or requiring him to fix you. On a daily basis a man feels burdened by the world and feels like he is in a constant state of struggle. He longs for a woman he can turn to that will be his safe haven to rest his weary mind. He wants a woman who can rejuvenate him with her feminine loving energy. He needs a woman to be his retreat. Yet, now a days women find it very difficult to be this safe haven for their men. Women these days are stressed out from the demands of the world and assaulted by their own chaotic egoic minds. Creating emotional safety for your man means you must do the inner work of healing your negative thought patterns that trigger your emotions and behaviors in intimate relationships. When you heal these you become less reactive and you are easier to be with and relate to. You will bring him light and love not darkness and drama. Then a man sees that you are like fresh water in a barren desert. A woman that can provide emotional safety for a man is rare in this world. This rarity is what causes a man to grow and becomes a good partner in order not to lose you. There are few women that get this concept and actually live it. Read Katarina Phan’s website article below for a more in depth understanding. This article nails it.

Quote By Katarina Phang:
”Communicating your needs before he’s where you’re at emotionally = pressure.  Rotation works better than “communication” cause your “communication” is nothing but trying to fix him and it never works.  High-value women understand this instinctively that trying to fix a man or a relationship never works to their advantage.  They only focus on their own happiness cause when they’re happy likelihood is the relationship will fix itself or someone better will come along.”

Hello!So I have spent the last few days immersing myself in relationship coach Katarina Phang’s programs and youtube videos. Katarina’s e-book “He’s Really That Into You, He’s Just Not Ready” came out in 2012 and she has been an active and influential relationship coach since then. I remember coming across her work in 2016 when I was beginning my healing journey and my blog. I also remember I did not feel a connection with her work so I continued to focus my attention on the works of Christian Carter, Rori Raye, Kristina Marchant, Mathew Boggs and Pat Allen. I learned so much in those years from these wonderful coaches and I was able to transform the relationship with my EUM (emotionally unavailable man) into a beautiful commitment and marriage in September of 2017 (see my pic above). Now that I am married and settled in I went on the hunt to learn more about this whole relationship coaching business and community. This is when I found Katarina again. Let me first say she is probably not for everyone. She is very direct and very spiritual which can be be off putting to some. At first I was resistant and did not take her seriously, but as I carefully listened to her YouTube videos I realized she was really on to something. Her programs and work are not necessarily different from the coach’s I mention above, although she has a different viewpoint on communication and sex. Her main teachings center around, the art of leaning back, feminine and masculine energy, the art of controlling your emotions and detaching from the ego mind. As we all know these are the holy grail concepts in the relationship coaching community. The thing that makes her different is her approach to healing and solving relationship issues. She has a very Eastern philosophical approach that centers around the understanding that relationships are the vehicles for personal transformation and healing (I ALWAYS FELT THIS TO BE TRUE). She also teaches that it is the deranged and chaotic egoic mind that causes all our problems. She teaches that a woman must heal her own mind before she can have a loving and committed relationship (THIS IS ALSO THE MAIN TEACHING IN MY COACHING YAY!). This healing takes place when a woman grows in awareness and distances herself from the crazed thinking patterns developed by unmet needs in childhood. Katarina preaches that a woman must develop her TRUE self (spiritual self) that is non-reactive, centered in awareness and exudes loving feminine energy in order to attract a good man and love. She also says that any EUM can transform from a frog into prince when a woman does her inner work and her behavior and energy changes. So with all this said – I LIKE HER!!!! She resonates with my work and coaching philosophies. She won me over because the inner work she describes is what I used in my life and what changed my relationship from awful to beautiful. Katarina is genuine and has a deep understanding of true relationship dynamics and deep inner healing. Maybe it’s her straightforwardness, her endless talk about engagements she helped to create, her eastern philosophical like solutions, or that she films her youtube videos sipping a glass of champagne (This was seriously the moment I decided she was for me lol!), either way she is the real deal and I like her. Just thought I would share this with you all. I will write more about her teachings in future blogs!

Hello wonderful blog readers! I am back! – married, happy, exhausted, anxious, fearful and hopeful. Awww…. the mix of human emotions that never seem to stop. I was married in September, had a lovely honeymoon and have been settling into my new marriage with my wonderful husband, El Guapo (nickname). Of course new issues have arisen and the work of a Goddess never ends. I look forward to sharing with everyone all my trials, tribulations and new coaching discoveries. One thing I am really excited about is to share a new relationship coach I discovered recently – more on this later this week. For now, I want to share Rori Raye’s thoughts on the dance of masculine & feminine energies that played out last night on the Oscar’s between Bradley Cooper & Lady Gaga. As I watched it, I also knew something magical was happening. I just didn’t have words to describe it. Thank you Rori. See her thoughts below and a youtube link of the performance.

 Hello,I can never get enough wisdom from Relationship Coach, Rori Raye. This article popped up in my inbox and I love it! These are the steps I followed when my man would not commit (after 3 years) and now I am 15 days away from my wedding. If you are in a similar situation please take time to read this article. Things can change if you change. 

Feminine PleasuresLove this quote by David Deida. Check out his books and audio lectures. Much Love, 

 Hello Wonderful Blog Readers,It’s been awhile since I have written a post because I am deep into wedding planning and life. The big day is September 30th and I am so  excited! I promise to post a pic. With that said it is very interesting what dynamics are coming up in my relationship these last few months. If I had to sum it up I would say the issues are about power/control and communication. Yikes! Those are big concepts. I am reminded again lately that relationships do not exist to make you happy (although they have that effect if done right), they are meant to make you grow. This means that the personal work/healing never ends. It just gets more manageable. Last night my fiancee, El Guapo, said to me with a bit of frustration in his voice, “Why can’t  you just tell me directly what you want?” “Why do you have to play games and make me work so hard to figure out what you want?”  I was dumbfounded and a bit embarrassed to tell you the truth. How had I taken so many steps backward with my communication skills? I took a deep breathe and knew in that moment I had a choice. I could go into defensive mode and rail against him all the things he does wrong or I could do a little introspection and voice my feelings. The Goddess in me knew what to do immediately.  So I said “I did not realize I was not communicating my needs I apologize.”  Then I proceeded to tell him what I preferred in this particular situation. I saw his face melt and all the tension between us disappeared. I really was wrong. I had brought up an issue expecting him to figure out what to do to make me happy. The problem is I did not tell him what I wanted. That’s a mindfuc* if I have ever seen one (sorry for the potty mouth)! So the night turned out dramatically different. I could have argued my points with him and kept him up for hours, but I chose the more loving path. Not just loving to him, but loving to my mind and soul. Now don’t get me wrong if I did not feel like I was wrong I would not apologize, instead I would just state my feelings and have those feelings cherished by him.  Yet, how many times as women do we get defensive, argue and attack when really we should humble down and look at what our men are telling us and self-reflect a little.